I am haunted by a feeling of dis-ease, a residue that follows me long after she has passed by. Beneath these restless waters is a simmering red. What have I done to invite such sour dismissal? I can’t find a reason in our exchanges for her apparent unfriendliness. I decide to invoke protection, to shield me from a negativity that is surely not mine. Yet I quickly realize that what I wish to shield myself from is my own reaction: of hurt, of rage, of confusion—that does not yield to reason.
I call this invocation for protection, shield for wounded animals. I am a wounded animal curled around my hurt. As I turn my attention to the being, the feeling of a one who is curled up and bracing, shaking with confusion, anger and pain, I recognize that the other is a wounded animal too, perhaps more than I.
What is needed for the shield:
1. Acknowledgement of emotional reactivity and admittance of the possibility of projection from both sides.
2. Allowing resistance and blame rather than exiling them.
3. Acknowledgement of the other; people act miserably because they hurt.
I sit still, with my spine stacked and let my mind settle, resting on the rhythm of natural breathing. I connect with the three gates of silence, stillness and space. I contemplate my intention, (and write it down) articulating carefully that I wish the shield to shine forth and encompass negativity before it reaches me. I also, and perhaps most importantly, request to be protected from my internal demons—which would use resentment, hostility, blame, etcetera—as weapons. I use the Odic Breath* to empower a citrine crystal and an amber ring, which I will carry as talismans of this invocation.
I feel the concentrated emotion of my wish and make it an offering. I ask that the protection I invoke give me the strength to abide my own reactivity, not deny it or use my own discomfort as evidence that Craft doesn't work.
I don’t believe that an invocation or spell is meant to insure that one gets what one wants/avoids displeasure. A spell is meant to help one inhabit tumult, emotional and otherwise, with dignity, and meet circumstances with gentleness and resiliance. An invocation acts as a beacon: so that one might return to wisdom over and over again from within the most difficult of experiences. By returning softly, with open eyes to the place of contraction, poison self-liberates and I am assisted in my effort to reside within intelligent compassion.
*To perform the Odic breath: INHALE to the count of four. EXHALE to the count of four. As you do this, raise/feel the intense desire to be liberated from consuming defensiveness and paranoia. Now RETAIN the breath, concentrating an image of liberation and golden protection radiating from heart or center. Exhale onto the talisman and watch the image transfer itself there. The Odic force transfers best to crystals, liquid, (particularly oils, which don’t evaporate) and metals.
*The ODIC BREATH is detailed in Wiccan Mysteries: Ancient Origins and Teachings by Raven Grimassi